...hello? Is anyone there? I almost forgot that this was here.

How can someone pick up after so much change has occurred? Since I last wrote here, I've shaved my head, fought with someone that left the right side of my face and neck scarred, dropped out of my high school to finish a credit at night, effectively stopped talking to several members of my family due to... unpleasantness, and have found myself employed in a convenience store downtown after having been inspired by the movie "Clerks."

I haven't updated here in a long while partly because our internet was disabled for several months, but now that I have a high-speed connection you should expect to hear more from me.

About dropping out of school, remember that half-baked plan I concocted two entries ago? Well, it worked. But it wasn't at all easy. There were times where I felt as though nothing I did mattered enough to impact my grades, and there were times where I was propelled by a manic energy that I never felt driving me before. There were weeks when I didn't sleep for several days straight, and there were weekends in which I never saw the light of day. Never did I put forth so much effort and energy into an idea that seemed so distant, so out of reach.

But I reached it, and when I did, I felt as though I was the lord of the earth. Russ and I walked down the hallways of our school with the airs of nobility permeating through us, there was nothing we could not accomplish, there was nothing that could not be ours.

That was on February 1st, and I haven't seen or heard from anyone since, and I'm so very lonely.

I'm going to try Russ's house one more time...

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